Another Sunday gone and still no joy

Before I digress into too much detail, I can’t believe my luck. This Sunday I was supposed to go up to Shambler’s to train, I was determined to go especially after my bottling out last week. As you can probably tell, I didn’t make it this week either.
On Friday I play 5-a-side football and before I even kicked a ball I slipped and made a real mess of my knee! Sunday morning it was partially “scabbed” over and still raw. This morning it has totally scabbed over, it’s the equivalent of a really bad burn, so I can hardly bend my left leg.
It’s as if the God’s don’t want me to play football, SO, another week gone, I just hope I’m not too late. I might pop down Wednesday, I shall see how my leg is, and see if there are any teams training.
Really this is my entire fault, I need to be more assertive and not such a wimp, I know I’m good at football and so why am I afraid.
I’m as fit as I’ve ever been and getting fitter, my football is also improving so I have just got to be confident.

Oh my God…….

I can’t believe what I did yesterday.
I have been trying to get into Shamblers football team for months and when I turn up I choked and backed out.
“I seriously need a word with myself”.
When I got there, the team was already there but no coach. So instead of having that awkward silence and people look………!!!Never mind!!! no excuses, Basically, I sh!t it and I’m extremely annoyed with myself.
More than likely I’m far better than most of the lads there but bottled it. Next Sunday I can’t let it happen again. I might pop down Wednesday as well and have a word with some people down there, see if i can get to know a few people.

Still can't believe it :(